My First summer without your smile, your low growl....

I feel empty still-7 weeks after you left me....I feel so very empty....your spirit was always so soothing to me....you balanced my crazy world. You loved me when I had no one else to even notice my presence. You have been my constant companion-unwavering, expectant of my meeting your needs as I had always done....trusting...until that last day....when I had to make a decision..the hardest decision of my very life....to let you go...when all I wanted to do was wrap my arms around you....heal you...get you to walk...you had to walk....I couldn't lift you anymore..you couldn't lift yourself and you wanted to so very much...as you called to me...constantly...you were in pain...you were in discomfort...you were unable to move on your own...and I had to look into your eyes..and decide...enough.....enough...enough.....and now....we only have the emptiness left of you....you were 74 pounds of love...and caring...and comfort...and stability...and I miss you so very very much...every minute of every day....I wonder how we are even gettting through the day without you.....Prince...I want you back...I miss you...I want you back...I want that beautiful boy..that beautiful puppy back...where did the years go Prince....when did we become old....you and me...when just 12 years ago...we were both so young...how did we get here....each and everyday...I worried about what I would do when I lost you....I worried..I thought about it....I suffered your loss and million times in my heart..and in my head...and now...it's real..and it's worse than any of my imaginings.....my heart has a hole....that just won't mend...I miss you my baaaabbbbbyyyyy boy....my best friend, my Prince...